How I Wish to BE...

I wish to be somebody

But I don't tell anybody

I am ashamed

that they will see the real me..

I always pretend to be happy

but deep inside me

I am a slave of my own anxiety

about the things a round me..

I really wish to be happy

But it's getting more sad deeply

I want to tell anybody that I am

looking for somebody to love me as me..

I wish that everybody will like me

Just what I expect to be

I was really bothered when somebody

told me that he hated me..

I cried for grief and pity

for what he has done to me

I felt that I'm not that somebody

because we have different personality

in facing relationship and poverty...

As I recall these lines; I remember that it happened during the sandiest days of my life..where I find no one to lean on..no one to understand and where in writing was my only consolation. I don't want to experience this thing again..I have too much of yesterday and I've learned a lot from it..

I am what I am now because of what I've been through..Experience is a great teacher molding me to become a better person and not a bitter one. After all those years, I realize God's plan of allowing things to happen. I do believe that there are times in our life that trusting seems a burden but one thing that I am assure of; even if we don't understand; we must trust in HIS ways..